Drawing & Illustration

Who are you?

I was feeling very intense emotion, getting lost in my thoughts, wondering who I would even be if I didn't have ADHD and these things that I'm struggling with. Then I saw my reflection in the mirror, and I didn't even recognize myself. I decided to create this piece amongst the strong emotions.

I could barely feel the oil pastel in my hand. I could barely see my reflection and the drawing through my tear-filled eyes.

Shouldn't you try?

I could easily break myself out of these destructive thoughts-- and get better-- (but... I want to fully understand them.) This piece was created when I was questioning myself why I don't want want to try to get better, and the guilt involved with that.

Everything felt soft and gloomy. I didn't want to make dark, forceful lines.

Don't look at me.

I was feeling some intense anger this morning. I didn't know why or where it came from. But..., I didn't feel like getting rid of it. It would've been so easy to let go of and push the anger aside, but... I realize I never really allow myself to feel anger. So I hung on to that feeling and released it through the making of this piece.

I used forceful mark-making and didn't care that the oil pastels were being used on top of each other.

Contento de contento

This day I was feeling very happy. And I was just happy that I was happy. 

"Estoy contento de que estoy contento" -Contento de Contento, song by Jósean Log

The colors felt like joyful fruit, the hair was like a river flowing, and the marks felt like they were bouncing off/radiating out of me.