Paintings

Chrysalis

Oil Paint, 30"x24", April 2024, $900

Like a chrysalis, I am in the midst of awaiting a transformation in the discovery of who I am.

Comfort in Darkness

Oil Paint, 30"x40", February 2024, $1300

Recently, I have been struggling with sensory issues like lights or sounds being too much for me. I found that things felt more safe in the dark.

The deeper I go into discovering myself, the more I unleash and learn. I have found my comfort resides in this darkness.

There's Something But Nothing

Oil Paint, 30"x40", April 2024, $1500

In the open space of your mind, on the verge of trying to remember something.

It is as if you can feel like the answer is right there.... but.. there is nothing

Unleash

Oil Paint, 30"x40", February 2024, $1500

This piece is about unleashing emotions and discovering that I can allow myself to feel those emotions

Exploration Paintings

These paintings explore my thoughts and my mind. My art mirrors the layers of my mind. Just as thoughts overlap and intertwine, my work reveals hidden depths through layers of thinly placed paint. The softness in colors is a visual for not having a completely solid feeling. The fading, the transparencies, and the layering of delicate branches show the process of my thinking and begins to reveal the complexity of how it feels inside my mind.

My art contains many visual metaphors. My pieces have many connotations with the inner workings of the mind and body. Some of my pieces are compared with the veins and neurons of our bodies. There are also connotations of tree branches and roots which could be symbols of growth. Branches could also be a symbol for how an idea diverges into other potential ideas, which is a concept that I explore. I have incorporated textures comparable to spiderwebs, gum, and clouds into my paintings. Spiderwebs are beautiful and intricate but also a place where you can get trapped; gum is also sticky and you could get stuck in it and it is also malleable when worked with. Clouds are foggy and semi-transparent which could symbolize uncertainty, which is a topic I explore further in my paintings. They are also soft and comfortable. Holes are like safe spaces to me; I just want to go inside and explore. This is representative of wanting to go inside my mind. 

Explorations in Color

Oil Paint, 30"x40", December 2023, $1200

Explorations in Orange

Oil Paint, 30"x40", December 2023

$1200

Explorations in Red

Oil Paint, 30"x40", October 2023, $1500

Currently on display at IUSD

Explorations in Blue

Oil Paint, 30"x40", October 2023, $1500

Currently on display at IUSD

How are you?

oil paint on canvas, 12"x60", 2023

Oftentimes when someone asks "How are you?" this is a representation of how it feels. My thoughts and feelings overlap until I am unsure of how I feel, unsure of how to respond to this simple question.

Drip Drip Drip

Oil Paint, 30"x40", November 2023

Like a sink faucet that keeps dripping, my thoughts keep on coming. You can tune it out sometimes, while other times it is very annoying and pestering you.

At what point will the sink overflow? At what point will these thoughts just be too much for me to handle?

Too Much, Yet Not Enough

Oil Paint, 24"x30", 2023

I always feel like I am running out of time. Not enough time to do anything. I'm constantly stressed out by the nonstop ticking of time.

However, there were several times when I got extensions on deadlines. Or there weren't a bajillion things due at the same time for once-- and it feels unreal. When I am given this "free" time... it almost feels more stressful. Like I should be doing more, even though I have plenty of time. It never feels like I'm doing enough.

Experimental Cumulus

Oil Paint, 20"x30", September 2023, $250

Currently on display at IUSD

In relation to Inspiration From Above, I wanted to use clouds and experiment with them. I wanted to use this as an opportunity to expand and experiment with different techniques and find what I love about painting.

Inspiration From Above

Oil Paint, 20"x30", September 2023, $250

Currently on display at IUSD

I find the sky and the clouds to be inspiring and they give me a sense of comfort. I've always wanted to paint just clouds, but didn't feel like that was acceptable. So here it is: clouds!

Where I Want To Be

Oil paint, 18"x36" and 24"x36", year

This diptych is about how I feel like I am under a lot of stress, and how I wish I could be at peace and feel comfortable in the soft happy colorful clouds. However, during the end of the process of painting this, I began to realize how I feel more comfortable living with this weight and darkness at the moment.

Left or Right?

Oil paint, size, year

I am a very indecisive person. I am also quite forgetful due to my ADHD. For this piece, I combined these two topics together into a painting of a map from my dorm to the art building. There are many different ways I could go, each path ending up in the same place with about the same amount of time. I'd ask myself do I go left or right? Sometimes I would stick to the same path for familiarity, while other times I would go the new route during that impulsive rush. Each layer I would tape a path and paint around it. Each time I would come into the studio, I would remember the path slightly differently, so I would adjust these changes, while keeping each layer semitransparent in order to see the layers underneath.

Frozen in Fear

Oil Paint, 24"x30" (not for sale)

This painting has been painted over and turned into something new (Chrysalis), but I still wanted to include this version.

This painting represents my ADHD paralysis. Like a deer in headlights, I will sometimes freeze when my thoughts are too much and I am too overwhelmed with fear. It is very disabling, as it causes me to physically be unable to move or do anything, for hours at a time, as I am frozen in fear.

Think

oil paint on cut canvas, 36"x36", 2023

This 3D piece is about the beauty and complexity of the many layers of the mind.

To create this piece, I made some smaller canvases, painted them, and cut out holes with exacto knives. Then, I made a canvas stretcher frame, nailed the smaller ones inside, and stretched the canvas around those. That canvas was then painted and then cut into to reveal the canvases underneath. I cut holes into another canvas, and stretched it over them. Lastly, I built another wooden stretcher and nailed all the canvases inside, cut holes in another canvas, stretched it, and painted it!